Feb 06 2016

First Fosdem

Category: CommonIuliana @ 13:07

I have a few people in the Netherlands that I dare call my friends so when I found out that MuteMath was going to sing in Amsterdam, I bought a few tickets and took some day off to see them.

One of them had the wonderful idea to spend the weekend in Bruxelles and go to Fosdem, the biggest open source software gathering in Europe. 2016-02-06 12.32.19 I went there having really big expectations. Software conferences in Romania are sort of dull. And as usual it was disappointing. I should realize by now that it really does not matter the country or nationality, people are the same everywhere. Maybe they have more capable politicians, better roads but people are the same everywhere.

The event took place at Université Libre de Bruxelles and it was sponsored by RedHat, GitHub, OReilly, Google, Cisco, Colt, HP and MySQL. The presentations were quite short and the presenters were either unprepared either bad at it. The French presenters were the worst. Their English was so bad it hurt my ears. Some of them were really passionate about what they were presenting, but sharing their passion with the public was not among their talents.

The most amazing presentation I witnessed was Lars Vogels. He is the biggest contributor to Eclipse, and although my professional relationship with Eclipse ended more than an year ago, his presentation and demo was so good it genuinely made me desire to be an Eclipse contributor. I’m not sure if there were others that good, I mean there were 600+ in total, and I participated to … probably ten. It could have been eleven, but me and my friend were chased away from one of the Hadoop presentations because the room was full. The room was not full enough for the guy that entered behind us.

If that seems like a reproach for some misogyny, that was exactly what that was. Because my dear readers, Fosdem is a full fledged sausage fest. It was full of geeks or wannabe geeks, 99% males and a lot of them seemed strangers to basic hygiene products and practices. Also I assisted to 10 presentations, neither of the presenter was female. Which was kind of odd. In Romania, the IT domain  is evenly distributed among men and women. And I have always thought this was the case in more evolved/civilized countries. And when I read articles about how women were organizing abroad in women programming groups and how they were sort of militating for womens rights in IT, I considered it it silly. Because for me in the domain I work in, in my country, there is not difference between a woman and a man programmer. I mean, shit, the focus is on the code, on the solution, not on what gender the programmer is. So Fosdem and other stories of my female friends working abroad made me aware about the fact that if I ever consider working as an IT specialist outside the country I will get to experience misogyny, sexual harassment and mean gender related jokes in the work place. And I will have to take it, because complaining about it won’t help my case. Because although the world is changing and people have become more opened to accept same sex marriages and transgender people, we are still far from accepting that we should not consider gender when we evaluate somebody’s capacity of doing their freaking job.

Anyway, Bruxelles is an interesting city, I liked it. But I don’t think I would be able to live there. I was amazed about how big the Université Libre de Bruxelles campus is. I sort of wish the university I studied at would have been as big and as great as this. But it is what it is, the past cannot be changed and I turned out pretty well in the end.

After my experience I can tell you for sure, that if I ever go to Fosdem again it will be as a presenter. And I will make my presentation interesting, fun and interactive.


Feb 06 2016

The “Fuck Yeah” principle

Category: CommonIuliana @ 12:24

A few weeks ago, or might have been months I read an article describing “The Fuck Yeah” principle which is a philosophy of life underlining the fact that when deciding something if the option is not “Fuck Yeah, I want to do this” then you probably should not do it, whatever it is.

I was thinking about this when I was about to leave and traverse half a country in order to try to figure out some shit my family has done. Did I want to do it? Fuck NO! So this morning, when I woke up, I knew what I had to do. But there was a little problem. My mind was screaming not to do it. The fact is, I will never be my own person, I will ever doubt myself if I do not get to make my own decisions. And accept the consequences.

So I did the rational thing, left a message for a trusted relative, telling him to call me if there is anything urgent that needed my assistance.

There was another thing, a job offer, form one of those companies that people in my field do not say no to. And I considered it a lot, because I dreamed about something like that happening since I was in college. But I did not feel like “Fuck Yeah, I want to do this”. It felt sort of like… “Meh, this is great but I’m not feeling it”. So I passed.

I mean, you know what happens to people in my line of work? If they are really good, they go on their own. They dedicate their life to their ideas and make things the way they want to without managers hovering over them.  Does this sound good to me? Fuck yeah.

This is it. From now on I’ll just follow the “Fuck yeah” principle. Because I am old enough to follow my instincts and trust myself. Also, usually when something does not feel right, usually isn’t.


Feb 04 2016

Chorus

Category: CommonIuliana @ 19:59

Starting with January 1st 2015, the chorus of my life was:

I can’t go out, I need to write.
I need a big black coffee, I did not get much sleep last night
I’m so tired, I need sleep
My eyes open I must keep …

But starting with 16 December the chorus changed to:

I’m on top of the world, my book is out
Go ahead, buy it, see what’s about!
And now when you are busy reading,
I’ll be in my bed, busy sleeping.

I know my rhyming sucks, but my book doesn’t and you can get it from here.

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Jan 28 2016

Aia cu femeile puternice

Category: CommonIuliana @ 15:25

De când cu curentul ăsta feminist, orice tipă cu prea mult timp liber, dar care vrea să fie în ton cu moda descoperă internetul și se apucă de emis inepții despre cu bărbații sunt niște porci proști iar femeile niște delicate deștepte și puternice.

Eu sunt toată de acord cu idei gen egalitatea sexelor and shit, de asta îmi rezolv cam toate problemele și nevoile singură, iar când nu pot, sigur pot plăti pe cineva să facă asta. Îmi curăț singură mașina de zăpadă, dacă aș avea un trotuar în fața casei l-aș curăța și pe ăla și tot așa. Nu aștept să îmi facă nimeni nici o favoare sau să mi se dea gratis doar pentru că sunt femeie. Vreau ceva, cer, muncesc, obțin. Dar nu mă muștruluiesc când nu îmi sare nimeni în ajutor de la sine sau nu mi se deschide ușa la intrare în restaurant. Știți de ce? Pentru că ne naștem și murim singuri și nimeni în viața asta nu ne este de fapt dator cu nimic. Iar cei care ne sunt datori, dacă ei n-au simțul moral să îți plătească datoria, atunci nu îi poți obliga să facă asta. Ce să-i faci, viața e grea. Deal with it.

De mult n-am mai scris un articol în care să critic inepțiile altora, dar am zis să stric tradiția pentru a râde cu curu, da… cu curu, de prostiile debitate de o puștoaică necoaptă ce se vrea femeie puternică – la 23 de ani. O fi așa, n-o fi, asta zice Zoso. Eu am citit articolul ieri seara, m-a bufnit puțin râsul, pentru că mie mi s-a demonstrat la începutul de săptămână ce înseamnă cu adevărat o femeie puternică.  Dar despre asta altă dată, când voi avea timp și chef să mă laud.

În primul rând, m-a bufnit râsul pentru că tipa compară femeile slabe cu pisicile . Ca proprietar de pisică vă spun cu mâna pe inimă, că deși pisicile se miaună, ele sunt stăpânele de fapt. Așa că tipa sigur n-a avut pisică niciodată, altfel n-ar fi folosit acea comparație.

Cât despre faptul că o femeie puternică exprimă clar ce vrea, asta e valabil doar dacă negociază un contract, moment în care pune pe masă și ce oferă. O femeie puternică obține ceea ce vrea și de cele mai multe ori va merge pe principiul scopul scuză mijloacele.

Apoi, aia cu femeile ca un egal, well… sunt avantaje și dezavantaje, sunt sigură că ar putea să o lămurească foarte bine  Cosmin Mitu.

În fine, ca încheiere: bărbații nu sunt toți la fel, teoretic, dar dacă eu mă înșel, ei bine, motivul pentru care sunt așa este ca au fost crescuți și educați de alte femei. Nu îi poți schimba pe ăștia bătrâni, însă dacă ajungi să fii mamă de băiat crește-l altfel decât au făcut-o mamele lor, pentru a nu mai trece nici o altă femeie prin chinurile prin care ai trecut tu cu ei.


Jan 24 2016

Alcohol observations

Category: CommonIuliana @ 13:47

So… today I had some revelations. I am an avid reader and avid series consumer. And today I just had some vodka and decided I have the time to write about it.  First, let’s start with a list:

  •  X-Files, both main characters have light colored eyes: hazel(David Duchovny) and blue(Gillian Anderson)
  • Smallville, Clark has green eyes. Lana Lang had green eyes. Allison Mack also has green eyes. Michael Rosenbaum has blue eyes.
  • Fringe, Anna Torv has green eyes. Joshua Jackson has blue eyes.
  • Castle, Nathan Fillion had blue eyes, Stana Katic has hazel eyes, Susan Sullivan has blue eyes, Molly C. Quinn has blue eyes.
  • Jessica Jones, eye color of the main character: green. She fears a man with a mind so strong he can mind fuck her and she loves a strong man, muscles, indestructible and with a not so strong mind. Is this a bloody cliche? David Tennant has brown eyes and he is a villain … hm?
  • CSI, William Peterson has blue eyes, a lot of other characters have brown eyes. This was unexpected.
  • Beauty and the Beast, Kristin Kreuk – green eyes. Jay Ryan has hazel eyes.
  • Californication, both main characters have light colored eyes: hazel(David Duchovny) and blue (Natascha McElhone )
  • Aquarius, Claire Holt has blue eyes. Hazel – David Duchovny, dooh! Emma Dumont has hazel eyes.
  • Supernatural, Jared Padalecki has geen eyes.Jensen Ackles has hazel eyes too.
  • Game of Thrones – do I even have to make a list? Except for Jon Snow and some characters that died, nobody else has dark colored eyes.
  • Grimm, the main character has grey eyes, which I think is  actually  a light green, like my mothers. Silas Weir Mitchell has grey eyes too. Sasha Roiz has blue eyes. And so on …
  • Bones, Emily Deschanel has blue eyes. David Boreanaz has dark brown eyes.(surprise)
  • Arrow, Stephen Amell has green eyes. All his girfriends in the movie have hazel/green or blue eyes.
  • Blindspot, Jaimie Alexander has hazel-brownish eyes. Sullivan Stapleton has green eyes.
  • The Mentalist, Simon Baker has green eyes. Robin Tunney has green eyes too.

And so on. Start analyzing movies if you feel like it, but you will reach the same conclusion I did. Light colored eyes look better on camera. Because of this, we tend to associate light colored eyes with beauty.

So this is just another point where nature screwed me, because I have light brow eyes. And when I say light, it does not mean really light, just a brown that is not evil character dark. :)

A… you wanted a conclusion? Nope, I cannot give you that. This is just the vodka writing. :D


Jan 22 2016

Fiction

Category: CommonIuliana @ 0:31

Most people go through life wanting love. Chasing it like crazy, felling unfulfilled without it. They are looking for love to validate them as individuals. They are looking for love although they are not sure what it is. They know the definition it was given to them via child stories, then adult stories and movies or series. They cannot verify if the definition is true or not, they believe in love like some believe in God.

The scientific definition is rarely accepted and considered cold and unfair. They forget that life is not fair after all. There is no such thing as forever when it comes to love unless you really, really want it to. And that is the beauty of life after all, it is what you make of it.

I like seeing movies that present great love stories. I like seeing a love story unfold over a big number of seasons, starting like a friendship, and then becoming something way beyond. I even like the illusion that getting married with the person you love is one of the best things that can happen to you and it is more spiritual than a party with all your friends to celebrate your love.

I like seeing these things, I still like reading books about love stories. I have quite a creative and a dreamer mind, so I do like love stories because I so much enjoy fiction.

So when you said you love me, I was not happy, not flattered, nor whatever you expected for me to be or feel. I felt a little uneasy, because I really have no idea what that means. We have always been friendly, maybe I have shared some personal details with you… but love? How, why, what do you mean?

The irony is that for a long part of my life this is all I wanted: love. I chased it, tried over and over to make it happen, to achieve it. To enjoy and keep it. Although I had no fucking idea how it looked or felt like. I lost friends and I have lost time chasing an absurd dream. But now I am wide awake, and after dreaming for more then 20 years to reply with “I love you too”, I was quite surprised when I heard myself asking: “Why? How? What do you mean?” I am sorry that you might have been hurt by my reply, but you told me you always appreciated my honesty. I really hope you will continue doing so.

Stay safe! Stay happy!


Jan 12 2016

I am cold as fuck

Category: CommonIuliana @ 21:33

Si nu ma refer la caracter sau la faptul ca e frig in casa. N-am mai racit din octombrie 2014. In momentul in care scriu asta, zac in pat cu Macul in brate, putin ametita si cu putin lag la creier, pentru ca asa se manifesta racelile la mine.

Motivul pentru care n-am racit pana acum este ca am avut grija de mine. Eh… Anul asta am inceput prost. Am fost la patinoaar cu colegii. Nu mai tin mine cand am fost prima oara la patinoar, dar stiu ca era in Iasi in fata la Iulius Mall, inainte sa se mareasca mallul si sa devin parcare. Cred. Cum spuneam, nu sunt sigura. Si faptul ca nu m-am laudat pe acest blog atunci cu faptul ca am fost la patinoar inseamna ca, fie blogul asta nu exista pe atunci, ceea ce inseamna ca ultima oara cand am patinat pe gheata a fost probabil acum in jur de 10 ani. Tin minte ca am cautat pe internet cum sa imi tin picioarele pentru a nu cadea pe gheata si care sunt miscarile pentru propulsie pe patine.

Bineinteles, vineri, in drum spre patinoar nu imi mai aminteam nimic. Decat ca, acum ceva ani am mers la patinoar, o data. Cand am intrat pe gheata, initial m-am panicat, mi-a luat cateva momente sa ma acomodez, dar dupa aceea, 1 ora si 20 de minute m-am miscat incontinuu. Rezultatul a fost faptul ca la finalul turei eram leoarca, desi nu parea ca am facut cine stie ce efort si a doua zi n-aveam nici febra musculara, nici nimic.

Normal ca am mers acasa cu Sandelul, care e pe diesel si nu a vrut sa se incalzeasca asa ca…m-am ales cu o raceala de toata frumusetea care s-a declansat azi dimineata. Si nah, e ciudat, ca am reusit sa am grija de mine mai mult de un an, am fost calma si echilibrata in toate viciile… eh.. aproape toate viciile. Cred ca e primul an cand m-am comportat ca un adult si acum am reusit sa stric totul, bucurandu-ma in mod exagerat, ca un copil mic de o iesire la patinoar. Ce sa-i faci, asa e cu astia batrani, invata mai greu…

Postarea asta nu are diacritice, pentru ca inca nu m-am obisnuit cu ele pe Mac. Eu acum cred ca am sa incerc sa dorm desi nu ma simt in stare sa fac nimic, da inclusiv sa dorm.

Stay healthy, stay happy!